May 21, 2008

being bennet's mommy.

Wow. I can't believe it has been 3 weeks since I've blogged. Gone are the days when I was big and pregnant and didn't have much else to do but sit around and write - not that I'm complaining. : )

I couldn't possibly catch everyone up on the past 2 1/2 weeks. I barely remember them! But I can say that motherhood is the most difficult, most wonderful thing I have ever experienced and having Bennet is the biggest accomplishment of my life so far. He is amazing and God has truly blessed us with such an incredible gift. Even with the tears and stress of the past few weeks, I wouldn't trade a minute of my experiences so far for
anything. Being a mommy rocks!

Bennet and I are both doing well. He is changing every day and we are learning about each other and getting on a good routine - which is helping the stress levels very much. I'm feeling just about as good as new as far as all of my healing goes, too. I've lost about 30 of the 60 pounds I've gained and soon Andrew and I will start a post-baby eating plan to get healthy again. I've been going for walks every day with the baby and I cannot wait for my 6-week appointment so I can get the clearance from Dr. Hunter to get back to the
gym. My body misses it.

Our biggest drama right now is that yesterday I decided to stop breast feeding. It was a painfully difficult decision and there was a ton of crying - but I really think it is the best decision for all of us. Bennet wasn't gaining weight as quickly as he should be, and my milk supply was extremely low, and to be honest - I was feeling very stressed
out and very disenchanted with breast feeding. No one tells you how scary it is that you can't tell how much food your baby's getting and how stressful it is when he has problems with his weight. Andrew and I decided that it isn't worth the stress and that it is more important that Bennet have a happy mom who isn't crying all the time and so stressed out that she can't function. So now - we're just getting adjusted to formula and a new feeding schedule - but everything seems to be going well.

All in all, things are going better today than they have any day so far. Everyone tells me it gets better and better - so I am looking forward to every day with Bennet as time goes on! How could I not...he's just so stinkin' cute...


natalie said...

Wow, I still can't believe you're a mommy!

April E. :) said...

Oh TT, I know that was a hard decision for you. But the beauty of it is that you and Andrew came together as parents to make a decision that would effect the lives of everyone involved including that adorable little Bennet. I am assured that you will be happy with all your decisions and you will be the best mommy in the world!!! I can't wait to see you!!!

Brittany said...

I am so glad that you got a moment to blog! I can only imagine how hard it was for you to decide not to breast feed. I think somehow we set ourselves to be this great feeder of all men when it comes to that. Several women have warned me not to get stuck on the idea of breast feeding, because anything can happen. So I feel your pain. Glad to know that you both are doing well.

- Sarah :-) said...

YAY!! I've been checking your blog in anticipation of your first "mommy" blog. Here it is! Looking forward to seeing you and Andrew on Monday, and finally getting to mee Baby Ben.

He IS so cute! More pictures, PLEASE!!

PS - his postcard is currently on our fridge. ;-)

Cory E. :) said...

So glad everything is going well and everyone is healthy. I am also glad that you are back to blogging, I have truly missed your blogs.

Danielle said...

I am so sorry to hear that you were teary and stressed, but glad to hear it is behind you (unless of course they are tears of joy)!

He is such a cutie, and I am glad you are both doing well. So glad you are back blogging since it's the only way I can stay caught up!

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